Showing posts with label age. Show all posts
Showing posts with label age. Show all posts

Sunday, July 7, 2024

EPIPHANY OF THE DAY

 AGEISM

America is dealing with a new “ism” lately. That would be ageism. I never thought about it when I was younger for they always told us that old folks had more sense than we did. Now it seems old folks, that would include me, don’t have any sense at all.

I’ve only encountered ageism once in my professional career. That occurred during a political campaign, and I was doing some work for the wrong candidate. I don’t think the other party hated me as much as she did society at large. She hurled the word “elderly” at me like a Roman centurion throwing a spear.  I didn’t pay it much mind for I spent a year of my life hoping to live long enough to be an elderly anything. In the interim, I dealt with experts, even professionals, in the area of mendacity. Amateurs amuse, more than provoke, me.

I have come to believe that ageing is a remorseless fact, but I’m not sure we measure it effectively. I have young friends, even relatives, who quit learning at the point where logic became binary and facts were only useful when they agreed with emotions.

On the other hand, I have friends and acquaintances, some older than I, whose minds are, as they say down in LA, “sharp as tacks.”

I do think old folks tend to be a bit forgetful and hesitant in their responses to stimuli. I’m not sure that this is due to malfunction as much as to overloaded hard drives. They also maintain an imbedded acquaintance with the "law of unintended consequences." That can slow a response as much as anything.

Stories of achievement by those termed elderly—such as Frank Lloyd Wright and Grandma Moses—counsel against ageism. Stories of youthful folly abound. Think of the Cuban invasion and the refusal of 20-something “me” to buy Walmart stock when his wife told him to.

Why don’t we move away from thinking of age and dwell on policy analysis? Yes, it would be harder, but the results might astound us.




Friday, April 26, 2019


 Fiction Friday. Here's one I did long after reading From Romance to Ritual by Jesse Weston. Yes, you'll recognize it as one of the sources recommended by T. S. Eliot as an aid to understanding his classic poem The Waste Land.

ARTIFACTS
By Jimmie von Tungeln

The fierce August heat poured from the sky without mercy upon the solemn fields. Below, nothing moved or showed any signs of life except the efforts of a small boy darting like an atom below the cruel sun. He hopped along a turn-row from one stalk of cotton to the next. The loose soil burned hot enough to scorch the soles of his feet, but at row’s end, the cotton threw a small circle of shade, providing relief for the traveler. He rested in each shadow for a moment before hopping to the next and, with this strange rhythm, reached the trees along the edge of the bayou where the dark forest promised relief. He reached into the pocket of his overalls to make sure his prize was still there, that it hadn’t bounced out or found a hole through which to escape. Feeling its cool, polished form, he smiled and entered the woods, safe from his ordeal by heat. The woods enveloped him like a mother’s arms might wrap around a young child and the vast fields of cotton again lay unmarked by human activity.
            Inside, giant, brooding trees shut out most of the sun’s light so that the boy felt the cool damp soil against his bare feet. He eased to his right and found a familiar trail, then struck for the bayou. The forest was quiet like the world on a frost-covered morning and the boy shivered at its majesty. He moved with a knowing assuredness among the vines and bushes. Before long, he spotted his target. He approached without making a sound on the soggy leaves.
            The old man sat in his place, like a piece of the ancient vegetation itself. A rusted five-gallon bucket provided a seat. He held a long bamboo fishing pole over the water and a white flour sack on the ground held, the boy knew, both bait for fishing and food for the old man. The man sensed, rather than saw, the boy and he spoke without turning his head or removing a battered pipe from his mouth. “Marse Robert,” he said.
            “Hey,” the boy replied. “They bitin’?” He found a spot to the old man’s right and sat.
            “Mostly slow, today,” the man said. “How you doin’?”
            “I’m almost six years old. My birthday’s day after tomorrow—August 21.”
            “Well now isn’t that something?” The old man eased the fishing pole forward until the baited hook emerged. Then he swung the line toward him, grabbed it and inspected the bait. A mangle of worms dangled in several directions and he found no sign of molestation. He adjusted the cork—a relic that had long ago been retrieved from the top of an empty snuff jar—then slid his hand along the line towards the hook. Turning away from the boy, he spat on the bait and tossed it back into the bayou. Late summer rains had flooded the banks and the dark, sluggish water pulled the cork toward some unseen destination until the line went taut and stopped it.
            “I was born in 1920,” the boy continued when he saw that the man was no longer occupied.
            “You don’t say,” the man said, pulling the pipe from his mouth and exhaling a puff of smoke which floated across the bayou like spiritt seeking a companion. “You be grown before we know it.”
            “How old are you?” the boy asked.
            The old man looked at his pipe. “The ‘chidren’ says I must be pushin’ on the door of 90 years or so,” he said. “I don’t rightly know.”
            The enormity of the number stunned the boy and he drew is knees up and stared at the meandering water. Then he remembered. He stood up in that single, fluid movement that only the young can accomplish and thrust his hand into his pocked. He retrieved his prize and thrust it toward the old man. “I fount an indian ‘arrerhead,’” he said. He held a perfectly formed artifact of pure black stone, contrasting against his small, white hand. The stone approached five inches in length and still held the sharp edges and fine point that its maker had first chipped into it.
It was too large to fit an arrow’s shaft. It doubtless had formed the head of a small spear. The old man regarded it, admiring its symmetry and the perfection of the creator’s art. “You shore fount a beauty there. Wherebout’s did you get it.?”
“Up the bayou aways, on the edge of the field the day after it rained. Hit was just a layin’ there. Poppa said Indians used to live here before we did.”
“They did indeed,” the old man said. He took the pipe from his mouth again and looked at the boy, bent toward him slightly to increase the importance of the moment. “Would you like to know something?”
“Sure,” the boy said, infected by the old man’s solemnity.
            “I remember when there were Indians here, at least one family. I remember when that last family left.”
            “You never…,” the boy started. The man’s look stopped him. “How could you remember Indians? Ain’t that been long time ago?”
            “It has for a fact,” the man said. “But I’m an old man and I wasn’t much older than you when the last ones left.”
            “Where were they at?”
            “Right down on this very bayou. This land wasn’t all cleared then and they lived in a lean-to right down near the edge of the water.”
            “Did you ever talk to them?”
            “Never did,” he said. “They kept to ‘theyselves’ and nobody ever went near them far as I knows.”
            “What happened to them?”
            “They just disappeared one night. Somebody noticed they left and nobody ever knew a thing about where they went.”
            “Did they leave anything?”
            “Not that I ever saw. When folks disappear like that, ain’t usually much left of them, ‘cept something like that there thing you holdin’. Folks finds things like that ever now and then.” He nodded at the artifact for emphasis. "Hit's a beauty alright."
            They boy stood without moving, absorbing this information and turning it around in his mind. The man returned to his fishing and his pipe. After a time, the boy closed his fist and returned the artifact to his pocket. “See you around,” he said and started walking upstream.
            “Yassuh,” the old man said and moved to inspect his bait again.
            The boy found a trail and followed the water as it edged sullenly toward its destination. From time to time, he felt in his pocket for his prize. It seemed to grow larger, he thought, the farther he went upstream. He thought about what the man had told him, and he thought about how the old man’s eyes had seemed to sparkle as he talked, almost as if a mist settled on them. He seemed to see the mist again and he felt as if he could see through it right into his own existence until he could almost see the very essence of what made him himself. He shuddered, “Indians,” he said to himself. Then he stopped and made a decision.
            The bayou was about to make a bend and he knew the trail would end. This was the perfect place. He searched among the trees until he found what he needed—the stump of a large tree left when a storm had taken its top. He scooped up a double handful of the soft mud at the water’s edge and carried it to the stump.
            He formed the mud into a small, smooth base. Then he went back to the water and washed the mud from his hands and wiped them dry on the legs of his overalls. He walked back to the stump, and looked at it, examined the small mud bed he had formed, and evaluated the worthiness of his handiwork. Then he took the artifact from his pocket and examined it as if he were seeing it for the first time. He held it in both hands, aiming the point upstream and into the impenetrable forest ahead. He slowly, and with as much respect as he could muster, laid the object on the bed of mud, pointing into the unknown. Then he backed away and stood still until he felt himself merging with the woods, the bayou, the artifact, and even the old man still fishing downstream. Maybe even, he felt, with the vanished ancients themselves. He felt himself becoming dizzy and then he felt a shaft of light coming from beyond the trees. He turned towards it and started from the forest.
            He whistled now as he walked.



Wednesday, September 5, 2018

My Redacted Life: Chapter 25 (Cont._3)

Since it had to be pretty obvious to my new girlfriend that I wasn’t in the best physical shape, she suggested we might try tennis. Heck, why not? She knew I had bought a cheap racket in a fit of enthusiasm. She had taken a PE course in college and she brought her old racket to Little Rock in case she and Vernell wanted to take to the courts.

Both rackets were gathering dust in their respective closets. I had bought a can of tennis balls and stashed them somewhere. I even had some white shorts and appropriate shoes. She did as well.

Well hell, let’s go grab a bite and then give it a try. What in the world could possibly go wrong with this picture? I was halfway to Wimbledon just in the thinking of it.

We stopped in at a place that served salads and had a light lunch. I was going to start this rehabilitation program out right. Wait until our clients got a look at the new me. She just sort of stared at me with a faint smile on her face.

After the meal, we rested a bit to, as my Sainted Mother would say, “let our dinner settle.” Around mid-afternoon, we made it to a park just past Mississippi Street and exited the Green Angel. One court was free, and one was occupied by two familiar faces.

Oh no. It was Jason Rouby and a man named Armand … DeLauriel, or something like that. They both knew my boss and here I was goofing off with some hot little babe on a workday afternoon. Jason was the head of Metroplan, the regional planning agency. He was the boss, so he could take off whenever he pleased. Armand was, I think, Deputy Director of the state office of planning. He could take off of a Friday afternoon too, if he wanted, for I’m sure he had little to do. The State of Arkansas cared about planning as much as it cared about labor unions.

Nothing to do but introduce them to Brenda. At least they would be impressed with her. I did, and we moved to the empty court. They resumed play. Both approached middle-age. Neither appeared very athletic. Actually, we soon discovered that they were pretty good.

We weren’t. I opened the can of tennis balls. It made a soft sound as I released the vacuum. I took one, laid the can aside, and tried to bounce the ball on the ground. It got away from me and I had to chase it down.

She lined up on the opposite side of the net, and I tried to knock the ball over to her. It hit the net and I had to chase it down. I wouldn’t look across at the other court, but I could hear the thump of the ball being sent and retuned.

I tried again. The ball sailed off to the right before it got to the net. She gave me a look that said, “You hit it. You run it down.”

Eventually, I managed to hit one over the net. It surprised her so much that she let it sail right by and she had to chase it down.

She knocked a couple into the net. I was beginning to realize that we might well have been the two most unathletic people in the state, another trait we shared. It was embarrassing. Then she sailed one over the net, and it got worse.

I tried to pivot toward where I thought the ball might be. My ankle gave way and a sharp pain shot through it. I ended up flat on the court. What else could go wrong?

Jason and Armand helped get me to the car. Brenda gathered our stuff, put it in the trunk, and drove us back to the apartment. She had no trouble with the five-speed. During her life on the farm, she had learned to drive every form of motorized equipment possible. In fact, she handled it better than I, as anyone watching would have concluded.

Back at my apartment, she helped me hobble to a couch and removed my shoes. There was no need to call for a doctor. Her mother worked for the country doctor in Lonoke, and Brenda had filled in to help on occasion. Additionally, they had shared many a conversation around the supper table. What could a physician possibly know that she didn’t? Invalids were invalids, that’s all.

“The best thing for a sprained ankle is to walk on it. I’ve heard Doctor Holmes say that.”

“Embellishing my response with words and idioms from my Navy life, I explained that I wasn’t going to do that, not yet anyway.

She had no recourse other that to use massage, 'poor Baby," and gentle kisses as treatment.

Hey, this invalid stuff wasn’t so bad after all.

Wasn't gonna be any sports
endorsements for me.
     



Sunday, March 4, 2018

Morning Thoughts: March 4, 2018


It is a sad thing when a relationship with a dear friend becomes endangered. I’ve had that happen recently. It’s sad. We’ve been pals for a long time.

We have been through some similar trials in our life. We’ve had some similar successes. We’ve always enjoyed one another’s company and shared memories and ideas unceasingly.

We either agreed on political views or didn’t discuss them.

We’ve taken trips together, all of which have been a blessing to me, and I think to him.

He was born “up-north” and I was born “down-south” but we’ve never let that affect our relationship.

If either of us ever needed help, the other was there, no questions asked.

How could the foundations of such a friendship begin to weaken? You might ask that, and it would be a fair question.

It was like this.

I made the mistake of mentioning to him, on our last face-to-face visit, that I had been guilty of “wasting some time,” recently. It shouldn’t have mattered, for we are both in the retirement stage of our lives, and any work we do is for enjoyment, professional pleasure, or marital harmony.

“Oh,” he said, and I thought I felt the earth tremble beneath me. “I’ve discovered a new way to waste time.” With that, he jabbed his keyboard. Instantly, the screen filled with a partially completed jigsaw puzzle. “Check this out,” he said.

I did. It was an interesting, uh, what do they call it these days, … app? He moved the pieces around with his mouse and there was an audible “click” when matching ones met.

“Cute,” I said to myself.

“Addictive,” he said aloud as he moved a “border” piece into position and smiled at the soothing sounds the pleasant pairing made.

I left thinking what a strange pastime for one of the broadest, deepest, and most insightful minds I have ever known. On a number of occasions over the next two weeks, I recalled how a bizarre seduction had trapped such a beautiful mind.

Then, yesterday I was temporarily constrained from applying myself to useful endeavors, so I decided to see if I could locate the “puzzle-app” as I call it. I simply wanted to see what evil demon had possessed such a dear companion.

My question now is, can you still call a person “friend” who has led you onto a path of seduction so fierce that it alienates you from even your beloved spouse?

Think on it and send me your opinion. In the meantime, there is this “Venetian Scene” which I must finish. Oh, and did you ever happen to see the Big Bang episode where Penny started playing video games?

But, as the Carol Lynley character
in Blue Denim said, "they don't
tell you how to stop it."


Saturday, March 3, 2018

Sunrise With Schubert: March 3, 2018


Ever notice how your perspective on things changes as the years go by? Well trust me, it will, unless you are Keith Richardson. Age provides us different sets of eyes.

Take stage plays for example. When I was a teenager and read, then saw performed for the first time, Romeo and Juliet, I went along with the conventional wisdom that it was a love-based tragedy of almost cosmic proportions, a real weeper.

Decades later, after multiple readings and viewings, including a film version with some steamy sex scenes, my perspective has changed. I now go along with the opinion I once read that Shakespeare, himself unlucky in love, had something else in mind when he wrote the play. He apparently, to me at least, intended it as a dark, dark, comedy featuring the two stupidest teenagers ever to prance and bumble their way through the annals of dramatic history.

Read it again for yourself.

“Perspective paradigm,” as I call this phenomenon, is also true in the reading of novels, but more so in films. As I viewed The Big Chill over the years, I identified first with one, then another, of the former college roommates depicted. Now, though, I’m beginning to find more empathy with the husband who tagged along and was intended to portray a despicable character. Go figure, but he now seems to me to be the only admirable character in the film.

And of course, on first viewing The Graduate, I, like many of my generation, viewed the Dustin Hoffman character as cool beyond words, a sophisticated and cinematic version of Holden Caufield (with whom I once felt a strong affinity but now view as the character in American literature most likely to open fire on a crowd using an assault rifle).

On my last viewing of The Graduate, as I watched the iconic final scene, my thought was “That gal just ran off with the sorriest summbitch in California. She’s gonna rue this day like Custer rued chasing Crazy Horse.”

Lately though, I’ve had a film on my mind by a man who, although now fallen into disgrace for his personal habits, still produced some interesting work. I’m thinking of the film Bananas, by Woody, “I like ‘em young” Allen.

If you remember, the film features a neurotic spurned lover named Fielding Mellish who leaves Manhattan and involves himself in a revolution in a fictional Latin American country. When the revolution is successful, the Castro-style leader goes mad. Oh, I actually wouldn’t call it mad, more like bat-shit crazy. For example, one of his first orders is, “All citizens will be required to change their underwear every half-hour. Underwear will be worn on the outside so we can check. Furthermore, all children under 16 years old are now 16.”

Sound familiar? I’m not talking about the underwear, I’m talking about a national leader wielding almost unlimited power who, by any standard that might be applied, now gone "to live among the Little People.” And such a premise is getting un-funnier with every day that passes, at least from my perspective.

Even the children
are starting to notice.


Sunday, November 5, 2017

Morning Thoughts: November 5, 2017

I was in an ugly frame of mind this morning: another year older, eye swollen shut from a wasp sting, and a list of “must do” items a mile long. The bi-annual ordeal with time change has begun, and, furthermore, it’s Sunday.

On top of all that, I’m scheduled for an overnight trip this week. That means I’ll have to pack a bag, wear a suit, and sleep alone in a galaxy far away.

If that doesn’t suck enough, I need to patch a hole in the roof of one of the buildings at the farm. Along with the “year older” bit, the height at which I become debilitated from fear of heights is a foot lower, now standing at six feet—two feet lower than the roof.

Just thinking of the national news creates ten percent rise in my blood pressure.

The devil on my left shoulder began to list my shortcomings.

- I’ll never write like John Steinbeck.

- I’ll never play guitar like Steve Davison or Mike Benetz.

- I’ll never create woodworking masterpieces like the fellows at the hardwood store.

- I’ll never be elected to the Piddlers’ Hall of Fame unless I drop my remaining consulting work.

- I’ll never finish Finnegan’s Wake.

- I’ll never convince some of my friends to use The Sermon on the Mount as a voter’s guide.

- I’ll never give Scarlett Johansson a case of the vapors.

Wait a moment!

That's when I woke up. I looked into the sleeping face of the prettiest woman in my world. A soft glow surrounded that face like a thin gauze pressed from fairy dust. She smiled in her sleep and whispered "Matthew McConaughey" but I knew she was thinking of me.

I smiled. Another year older and another year wiser and less likely to panic over what someone possessing high power tweets. America has survived worse.

Music? If it still makes you smile, to hell with fame and fortune. And the most important thing about woodworking is not making masterpieces, but not cutting off your fingers.

Voting? The arc of history will flow back to justice, peace, and compassion, just you wait and see.

Another year older, but not another year deeper in debt. Our investment portfolios have risen steadily since the Great Recession and we’re currently taking profits in prep for the next GR, or, as we financial gurus put it, “when the chickens come home to roost.”

I’m too old for the draft, but also more advanced in my knowledge of avoidance should we actually achieve the current goal of a two-front war. The bone spurs only bother me at heights above six feet, and helicopters go a lot higher than that.

The three of us are in good physical condition for our ages, and we all still enjoy a glass of wine, a good laugh, and happy music.

With these thoughts a’swirling, I went to the bathroom and stared at my swollen face. It stared back and said “Just remember, this face once snared one of the most beautiful girls in Arkansas."

True that.

Then I walked to the table and fired up the trusty old computer. Lo and behold! That great teacher and writer: The Journalist Sonny Rhodes, had lauded something I wrote.

Suddenly, I was beautiful again.

When you're loved by
someone like this, you
have a damned fine life.